it's just lonliness inside
and i swear to god that i
knew happiness at one time
and it was after self-destruction
but before you removed
the beating organs from my body
and called them worthless
and recomfirmed these insecurities
that I was scared would
make you run away in the first place
and you used them against me
to prove your point that maybe
it wasn't you, it was
in fact
me